released August 5, 2014
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- Track Name: Surrogate
All my life I’ve been terrified of the thought of ever losing you, the thought of life without you. If god can hear me, please send a cure. Or take me instead of her, It’s all I’ll ever ask you for. Being naive, I false reassure myself that you’ll always be here . I wish I could be the surrogate for your pain. Because knowing that you’re always hurting makes me so afraid. Why is this happening? Why is this happening to you? Take me instead. Take me instead. All my life I’ve been terrified of the thought of ever losing you, the thought of life without you. If god can hear me, please send a cure. Or take me instead her, It’s all I’ll ask you for. I can feel the numbness that you’re going through, the illness that is taking you. This is hell, but it’s jut another step I take to get by day to day.
- Track Name: Crossed
Crossed, just like the fingers right behind your back. I thought I knew you better than that. I can’t believe I called you my friend. I can’t believe I let you in. So next time, Why don’t you stab me in the front? No better yet, I’ll just hand you a fucking gun. It’s funny how the ones you learn to love, end up being the ones who pull the trigger. You’re two-faced, a liar. You’ve lit the match, now walk with fire. I’m not dead just buried alive, so I’m calling you out cause I’m sick of your lies. Why would you leave a knife in my back? Now you’re on thin ice, and you fell through the cracks.
- Track Name: Deprived
Coherently aware of the fact that I’m not who you think I am. An artificial vessel fabricated for your approval. Incapable of letting anyone in. Unable to reciprocate a feeling. Trapped behind this mask of my insecurities. Cornered by the despair I have hidden in my heartbeat. Now suffocating behind these walls that were a shield. Deprive me from feeling. The only purpose, to not feel like this again. A prospect of light that cannot be obtained, forever suspended at my fingertips. The grasp of sorrow over powers the need for serenity, and I’m lost in the dark once again. Emotionally crippled by my own deprivation, leading me on only to be abandoned. I don’t want to live, I’m sick of being with myself. I hate the blood in my veins. I hate the air in my lungs. And if I could fasten my wrists together, I’d beg the empty light in the sky to bring an end. To return the light.
- Track Name: Hollow
Am I the only one that feels like they’re dying, when I open my eyes, when I wake up in the morning. There must be a way for me to shake this feeling, of hopelessness, of feeling like shit. I’ve thought for so long that my life was worthless, and being worthless hurts, and thats whats bleeding me dry. I’m sick of waiting to blossom. I’m sick of waiting to bloom. It’s my time to shed this canopy thats keeping me from my dreams. The frailness of my thoughts, the part of me that’s lost. The constant hollow i’ve grown up with, the hollow I’ve grown accustomed to. So is a clean break just to much to ask for? Cause now all I have is burnt up bridges. So turning backs not an option. We either rebuild, or just move on. And I would never start to believe that the person I’m supposed to be would ever allow myself to change, for you. With every breath that I take, I feel I’m wilting away, becoming less of myself, becoming more of a fake. With every fucking day, I wish I wasn’t awake, I wish I wasn’t myself, there’s no one more that I hate. Am I the only one that feels like they’re dying, when I open my eyes, when I wake up in the morning. There must be a way for me to shake this feeling, of hopelessness, of feeling like shit.