Coherently aware of the fact that I’m not who you think I am. An artificial vessel fabricated for your approval. Incapable of letting anyone in. Unable to reciprocate a feeling. Trapped behind this mask of my insecurities. Cornered by the despair I have hidden in my heartbeat. Now suffocating behind these walls that were a shield. Deprive me from feeling. The only purpose, to not feel like this again. A prospect of light that cannot be obtained, forever suspended at my fingertips. The grasp of sorrow over powers the need for serenity, and I’m lost in the dark once again. Emotionally crippled by my own deprivation, leading me on only to be abandoned. I don’t want to live, I’m sick of being with myself. I hate the blood in my veins. I hate the air in my lungs. And if I could fasten my wrists together, I’d beg the empty light in the sky to bring an end. To return the light.
Boston band featuring members of Have Heart and Basement take their earnest, motivational post-hardcore to thrilling new heights. Bandcamp New & Notable Aug 23, 2023